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Cancer must be fucking genetic on dad's side of the family.
Niv is: 
devastated
devastatedShare some love
check it out.
I'm rocking steady. Go!
02 August 2007 @ 06:54 pm
26 July 2007 @ 01:10 pm
The beat in my head, it goes oh-oh-whoa.
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Still sick. :< Not doing much except watching anime and iconing. D: I haven't been eating a lot either, as per usual when I'm sick. And goddammit I hate it when my Lola & Lolo invite guests over. All they do is sit around, gossip, eat our food, mooch off of us, etc. Right now, it's my Lola's sisters, gabbing away about random stuff to each other or on cell phones. So rude.
I actually think I'm getting sicker.
No way in hell I'm telling my mom though. She's already trying to make me go to the doctor, even though I hate going. I'm always diagnosed with just a cold or something, and she doesn't get that they're just money-leeches. x( We just waste our money on a guy who'll tell us what we already know, and prescribe pills that I have to take several times a day that I don't think actually work.
orz
Also, if you like anime, watch Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei. It's funny.
I actually think I'm getting sicker.
No way in hell I'm telling my mom though. She's already trying to make me go to the doctor, even though I hate going. I'm always diagnosed with just a cold or something, and she doesn't get that they're just money-leeches. x( We just waste our money on a guy who'll tell us what we already know, and prescribe pills that I have to take several times a day that I don't think actually work.
orz
Also, if you like anime, watch Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei. It's funny.
Niv is: sore
soreThis is how the beat drops: Motion City Soundtrack
22 July 2007 @ 10:36 am
In you and I, there's a new land.
Angels in flight.
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Old-ish picture, but I still luff it. :]
Stayed home half the day yesterday, then met up with the girls at Country Club. I had pie. And then Ange and I ditched review to go to the mall, went to Sizzling Plate and ate steak. After THAT I started craving ice cream, and I made her crave ice cream as well, soooo Fior Gelato. xDD Then we went to watch Transformers, at which point I got a hankerin' for some popcorn.
OKAY TRANSFORMERS WAS AWESOME BTW. I want an iPod or a cell phone that's an Autobot to watch over me. :D
And I'm hungry. But on a diet.
...and I'm about to eat some carbolicious spaghetti. orz
Stayed home half the day yesterday, then met up with the girls at Country Club. I had pie. And then Ange and I ditched review to go to the mall, went to Sizzling Plate and ate steak. After THAT I started craving ice cream, and I made her crave ice cream as well, soooo Fior Gelato. xDD Then we went to watch Transformers, at which point I got a hankerin' for some popcorn.
OKAY TRANSFORMERS WAS AWESOME BTW. I want an iPod or a cell phone that's an Autobot to watch over me. :D
And I'm hungry. But on a diet.
...and I'm about to eat some carbolicious spaghetti. orz
| You Don't Need a Man ... or Want One! |
 Generally, you're very happy being a single woman. And anyone who has a problem with that... well, that's there problem. Not that you wouldn't share your life with the almost perfect guy. You simply won't settle though. Your life is too good to share with some substandard man! |
Niv is: 
hungry
hungry21 July 2007 @ 10:31 am
So before you start defendin', baby
Stop all your pretending.
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No beaching for Ana today. orz
Lunching with the schoolkids though. So life's been pretty... okay... I saved Momiji's life. He was about to be eaten by the dogs, but I chased them when they were running away with him and I kicked the one who had him in his mouth. *A* They ate HALF HIS TAIL and is hip is displaced, but given time I'm sure he'll heal. He can still walk a bit. As lame as it sounds, I'm very proud of myself. 8D
I was literally sobbing when I carried him inside the house. NO BITCHES fuck with MY rabbits. D:<
Lunching with the schoolkids though. So life's been pretty... okay... I saved Momiji's life. He was about to be eaten by the dogs, but I chased them when they were running away with him and I kicked the one who had him in his mouth. *A* They ate HALF HIS TAIL and is hip is displaced, but given time I'm sure he'll heal. He can still walk a bit. As lame as it sounds, I'm very proud of myself. 8D
I was literally sobbing when I carried him inside the house. NO BITCHES fuck with MY rabbits. D:<
Niv is: 
anxious
anxiousThis is how the beat drops: "Walk Away" - Kelly Clarkson
19 July 2007 @ 08:49 pm
FUCK YUYU AND ALL THE BASTARDS WHO VOTED FOR HIM
FUCK YOU ALL AND YOUR MOMMAS TOO
FUCK YOU ALL AND YOUR MOMMAS TOO
Niv is: crushed
crushed17 July 2007 @ 10:13 pm
So a friend of mine has turned scene.
THIS BOTHERS ME GREATLY.
Someone tell me what to do.
THIS BOTHERS ME GREATLY.
Someone tell me what to do.
Niv is: 
exhausted
exhaustedThis is how the beat drops: "Teenage Love Song" - Rilo Kiley
15 July 2007 @ 10:44 am
Color my world with hopes of loving you.
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Eeek, I forgot my password to my LJ and I wasn't receiving the email thinger, but then I remembered I used a different address for this account. xD
A lot of shit has happened. I'm running for Foreign Representative at my school, and our party, the ASBATs, has had a lot of advertising lately. It's fun. :D And stressful. x__x
In other news, Manj gave Rick to me. She and her mom have been arguing about him, so she decided to give him away. :( At least she can still come over and play with him and whatnot. He's a really hyper but uber smart puppy, though. I'm attempting to train him with pan de sal. :D
ALSO KARAOKE-ING. <3
Well, I was gonna make an uber long post, but Nina's here and we're getting our hair done. :3 Then I have to look for a Temari outfit. Uhh.
xDDD Yeeeaaah. Peace out.
A lot of shit has happened. I'm running for Foreign Representative at my school, and our party, the ASBATs, has had a lot of advertising lately. It's fun. :D And stressful. x__x
In other news, Manj gave Rick to me. She and her mom have been arguing about him, so she decided to give him away. :( At least she can still come over and play with him and whatnot. He's a really hyper but uber smart puppy, though. I'm attempting to train him with pan de sal. :D
ALSO KARAOKE-ING. <3
Well, I was gonna make an uber long post, but Nina's here and we're getting our hair done. :3 Then I have to look for a Temari outfit. Uhh.
xDDD Yeeeaaah. Peace out.
Niv is: 
contemplative
contemplativeThis is how the beat drops: "Stronger" - Britney Spears. xD
11 July 2007 @ 08:57 pm
You know I always like to play the victim.
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I'm easily tired lately. >___O And I do not get my Physics class mmkaaaaay. xD
Dear God my grandparents are home. Update more later.
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02 July 2007 @ 08:22 pm
Love of mine, one day you will die.
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Kisaki and George are dead.
One of the dogs got over the fence somehow and tore them to shreds. What's worse, I heard them dying last night. I turned on the light outside but I didn't see them since he got them at the side of the house.
I'm really, truly, very upset. George, because he was a dumbass but a sweetheart, and he was my mom's favorite. Kisa... I loved that bunny the moment I saw her. :( I actually never wanted a rabbit because I thought they were stupid and worthless pets. Then I saw Kisa at the pet store and I fell in love with her, but I wasn't allowed to get her. She was the smallest out of all of them, the little runt of the litter.
Then a week later, I came home to my new present: two female bunnies, which I named Kisaki and Momiji. I was ecstatic. I was doing my homework that night while Kisa, about half the size of my laptop's keyboard, crawled onto my notebook to try to get my attention.
Eeeee. I knew it was love. :(
I was terribly crose to tears this morning. And now that I'm writing this, I feel like crying. I miss that stupid rabbit. Maybe more than a sane person should, but what the fuck ever.
At least Miji's still alive. And omfg I discovered the weirdest thing today.
I've had Momiji for almost a year.
And I just found out she's a he.
I really, really miss Kisa. ;___;
I'm really, truly, very upset. George, because he was a dumbass but a sweetheart, and he was my mom's favorite. Kisa... I loved that bunny the moment I saw her. :( I actually never wanted a rabbit because I thought they were stupid and worthless pets. Then I saw Kisa at the pet store and I fell in love with her, but I wasn't allowed to get her. She was the smallest out of all of them, the little runt of the litter.
Then a week later, I came home to my new present: two female bunnies, which I named Kisaki and Momiji. I was ecstatic. I was doing my homework that night while Kisa, about half the size of my laptop's keyboard, crawled onto my notebook to try to get my attention.
Eeeee. I knew it was love. :(
I was terribly crose to tears this morning. And now that I'm writing this, I feel like crying. I miss that stupid rabbit. Maybe more than a sane person should, but what the fuck ever.
At least Miji's still alive. And omfg I discovered the weirdest thing today.
I've had Momiji for almost a year.
And I just found out she's a he.
I really, really miss Kisa. ;___;
Niv is: depressed
depressed30 June 2007 @ 10:16 pm
And one by one the stars would all go out.
Then you and I would simply fly away.
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Ugghh. Stressful week. :[ Too many assignments, and the roleplays are even worse. D: Our teachers are uber hard on us.
Did I mention that I have school on Saturdays now? Yup, UPCAT reviews. From 8 until 5. I feel bad because Sam, Ange and I arrived late today. o__+ I'm a really heavy sleeper. We have a lot of retarded videos though. xD Us = awesome.
You knoowww it.
[As if I wasn't tired enough, I just got back from playing DDR next door. x___x]
Did I mention that I have school on Saturdays now? Yup, UPCAT reviews. From 8 until 5. I feel bad because Sam, Ange and I arrived late today. o__+ I'm a really heavy sleeper. We have a lot of retarded videos though. xD Us = awesome.
You knoowww it.
[As if I wasn't tired enough, I just got back from playing DDR next door. x___x]
Niv is: exhausted
exhaustedThis is how the beat drops: "Gloomy Sunday" - Reszo Seress
30 June 2007 @ 12:44 am
DATZ RAIT I SED CUNT LOLZ.
Ahaha. At Manj's house with Sammy and a lot of chocolate. :3 Yaaaayness. Having fun. Oh, and a video. Us in a nutshell. :3
But deewwwd sleepy. 'Cause errr. I have my UPCAT review tomorrow. D: Omfg college. Colleeege srsly wtf. >3<
Ahaha. At Manj's house with Sammy and a lot of chocolate. :3 Yaaaayness. Having fun. Oh, and a video. Us in a nutshell. :3
But deewwwd sleepy. 'Cause errr. I have my UPCAT review tomorrow. D: Omfg college. Colleeege srsly wtf. >3<
Niv is: 
tired
tiredThis is how the beat drops: "Liar" - Taking Back Sunday
25 June 2007 @ 07:00 pm
Ugh. I fucking hate my mom. I fucking hate Baguio. I want to be at home in Florida preparing for pre-con, and nat'l con! It's all her fucking fault for ditching my homeschooling and then making us move here. It's like nothing I do pleases her! Just because I wasn't able to turn in my UP application because I lacked two damn pictures and fifty fucking dollars. And it's like the things I tell her, the things I accomplished for the day don't even matter! The things that I actually care about, the things that make me feel good about myself (FOR ONCE), she brushes off instead to chew me out about an entrance exam I didn't want to do.
WHATTHEFUCK.
UP isn't even one of my college choices!!!!
She's all, "I just want you to have the experience."
Well, quite frankly, I don't give a rat's disease-infested ass about "the experience". And when I told her I didn't care for going to the damn place, she had the audacity and arrogance to say, "You could've said, 'I passed the UPCAT'." And in my head, I wanted to scream at her, "No, you just want to say to your overachieving-daughter-bearing-sisters, 'My daughter passed the UPCAT'."
Then she turns it into this whole thing that I don't want to do it because I'm "lazy". I'm not fucking lazy, I just don't do things that I don't see a point in doing!! I don't waste my time on things I don't like just for her goddamn boasting rights, and not even for me to feel accomplished.
I. HATE. HER.
And I hate Baguio.
I shouldn't even bother with trying to make my grades decent. It's not like she'd care anyway.
WHATTHEFUCK.
UP isn't even one of my college choices!!!!
She's all, "I just want you to have the experience."
Well, quite frankly, I don't give a rat's disease-infested ass about "the experience". And when I told her I didn't care for going to the damn place, she had the audacity and arrogance to say, "You could've said, 'I passed the UPCAT'." And in my head, I wanted to scream at her, "No, you just want to say to your overachieving-daughter-bearing-sisters, 'My daughter passed the UPCAT'."
Then she turns it into this whole thing that I don't want to do it because I'm "lazy". I'm not fucking lazy, I just don't do things that I don't see a point in doing!! I don't waste my time on things I don't like just for her goddamn boasting rights, and not even for me to feel accomplished.
I. HATE. HER.
And I hate Baguio.
I shouldn't even bother with trying to make my grades decent. It's not like she'd care anyway.
Niv is: depressed
depressedThis is how the beat drops: My Chemical Romance. The fuuuck?
22 June 2007 @ 09:54 pm
Sing me anything.
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THEY NEED TO POST UP THE FREAKING ICONTEST ENTRIES FOR VOTING. I want to know what my competition is. D: (First icontest. I'm stressed.)
I had a very good and very strange day. Well, went out after school la dee da. Same old, you know how I roll. :] The funny thing is when I got home. I suddenly remembered that ohshit I didn't have a cell phone, so I couldn't call anyone to unlock the gate. I attempted to climb over the wire fence. I stuck my foot through the wire to see if it would fit, and I threw my umbrella over so I wouldn't be burdened by it. One of the works saw me, and since it was night, thought I was some crazy chick trying to break in, so he ran towards the gate. When he saw it was me, he opened the gate and told me that the padlock wasn't actually locked. 8|
I should look at those damn things before troubling other people with my idiocy. xD
I have school again tomorrow because of UPCAT. I want to roleplay/make more icons though. LAME. >:[
Also I hope Angela doesn't mind that I've been using her format for posting entries. <<;
MIGHT GET A NEW LJ because I've decided this journal isn't private enough and I'm too lazy to make all my entries Friends Only. :P
Niv is: sleepy
sleepyThis is how the beat drops: It's quiet. D:
21 June 2007 @ 06:58 am
With faith like a child.
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I really miss my friends, both in school and in Florida. I've been sick yesterday and today, so I couldn't go to school. I think it might be the seafood we ate. My mom has a fever too, because we ate talabang. She ate more, which is why she's worse than I am.
I really miss that boy.It's driving me nuts. I didn't want to see him because I knew I'd feel exactly as I do now. :[ It's not love, but I am crushing hard on him. :[
Niv is: 
irritated
irritatedThis is how the beat drops: "Hypocrite" - Skye Sweetnam
19 June 2007 @ 06:49 am
14 June 2007 @ 10:21 am
Summer is ending soon.
Err. The only thing that can describe my mood right know is the phrase "I DON'T FUCKING KNOW." But mostly, I'm happy because I'm going back to school and I get to see my friends again. Erhem. I'm gonna miss the people here cuh-razy, but I need to get back to Baguio, 'cause it would solve a lot of my problems.
On another note, I gained all of my weight back. ._. So much for my wonderful and effective diet. I just completely killed it. I've never been the type to resist temptation when it come to food, and so I'm a fucking whale again. Yaaaaay.
Permit test tomorrow. Wish me luck.
On another note, I gained all of my weight back. ._. So much for my wonderful and effective diet. I just completely killed it. I've never been the type to resist temptation when it come to food, and so I'm a fucking whale again. Yaaaaay.
Permit test tomorrow. Wish me luck.
Niv is: 
chipper
chipperThis is how the beat drops: "Why Can't I" - Liz Phair
12 June 2007 @ 01:21 am
[It's all too sweet to last.]
I totally pwn at Scrabble. Sorry big brother; love ya, but you're aaalll talk. :] Howl's was... well... odd. But enjoyably so. For me at least. :P And as;kldfj;sakldfj eeeeeee "he" mentioned me. :D Laaame I know, but I'm kind of sort of kilig. x___x; Also, I've been taking the test to get my permit. Err uh. Going okay so far? Just really long. D: Gah. Haaate the amount of time the damn thing takes. It's freaking 1 am and I'm not even asleep. Pffftt.
...I... really miss Picarre. .___.;
And today~! I was actually successful in my attempt to appear happy. :D Go Ana~
(also my mom is unintentionally a huge bitch but uh. I love her so. x_x)
Niv is: 
crazy
crazy10 June 2007 @ 03:03 pm
He makes me
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Half of me says, "It's all right, I don't care anymore."
The other half insists, "Keep telling yourself that."
Niv is: heartbroken
heartbroken02 June 2007 @ 01:44 pm
I have no fucking idea how to feel about this shit.
I don't know if I should be happy that I'm going to see him, or sad that it would never happen. =(
FUCK.
I don't know if I should be happy that I'm going to see him, or sad that it would never happen. =(
FUCK.
Niv is: sore
soreThis is how the beat drops: "Existentialism on Prom Night" - Straylight Run